8″ x 10″ acrylic on canvas / Little Paintings Series
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Hello dear hearts, I find myself wanting to chat with you this evening. :) I have been dwelling within my own shadows for a spell, and those of you that read my last couple of posts (7-15-09, and 7- 21-09), know why. I found myself once again, searching for light, and once again, I found it waiting for me just beyond the shadow’s edge.
Yesterday, I returned to meditation just to see if I could escape the endless noisiness of my mind. It was in that place of sacred silence that I finally listened to my heart, and I found peace. Why had I avoided meditation for months??? I found light within the silence..like a trillion little stars in a colorless night sky, and…
my energy instantly changed!
Later that day…as if by design, I received some very sage words from one of my very first blogging friends, 94Stranger at Rainring. Here are some of his words:
“All I can say is that the only way I know to gain something out of even the most devastating experiences is to try and understand what they have to teach us.”
“..each human being has to live their own experiences and face their own destiny…”
Thank you 94S!! Somehow, I had forgotten that!!! Last night and today, I have received more positive messages and confirmations. I also realized that I have been running along side others on their paths..trying to save them, make them leave it, and follow me. Not only, was that wrong..it kept me from moving forward. I had become weighted down with a very heavy heart, my own. I had stopped my own journey. I was also living in fear of alienated them, of losing them. Thus, I found myself wearing all kinds of smothering masks, just like before, **see Masked Mime**, well
the masks are off, once and for all..
discarded into the darkness!
How very LIBERATING.. I instantly felt the weight lift from my heart!!
My wings began unfolding again…
stronger than ever before,
So as to carry me
further and higher
straight into my dreams.
Dreams waiting there
the shadow’s edge!
I now find myself dwelling in new energies.
Changes are coming..including here.
I want to paint, to garden, to dance, and to laugh, to live life to the fullest, and most of all
I want to LOVE and BE LOVED, AS I AM.
I can do all these things now
and I will
I am free
to continue, on my own path.
I wish the same for all of you!
in Love, in light, and in laughter,
Ps I will leave the cult info on here, and of course, I will talk to any one that wants or needs to talk about it. It will no longer be my energy focus.
I want to thank all of you for your comments and emails..you’ll never know how much it meant. If I neglected to respond to any one of you, I apologize. Please don’t hesitate telling me so I can do so. You are all sparkles of light along my path.
To Shanni Lea, my beloved daughter, I will be waiting until our paths cross again
..and they will, because
our love is more powerful, than ANY cult!!